Ever since i started working, my life has had a negative backdrop.
Spruced up now and then by flashes of forced optimisim, encouragement from my girlfriend, joy and jokes of people around me.

Why do i feel so negative? Where is my zest for life? Where is my optimisim? I have no confidence in myself.

How many of you out there look foward to going to work??

I need some peace some calm, some renewed hopes.

But i cannot conceive of any jobs that i will enjoy doing.

SunFlower Samurai feels defeated today.